I don't know about you dudes, but it's a rare woman that hasn't battled this particular demon. The woman who hasn't heard the hateful voices dripping poison in her head, especially during her lowest times. The woman who hasn't embraced the darkness and let it take her over, heart and soul; even if just for a minute, giving in to the pain.
"You aren't pretty enough, strong enough, smart enough, likable enough. You're too fat/skinny/short/tall/blond/brunette/ginger. Your eyes are too small, your nose is too big, your mouth is too wide, your ears are just funky. Your tits are too big/too small/too saggy, same thing about you ass. You aren't lovable, you aren't desirable, you aren't wanted and you never will be. You aren't enough."
I've spent a lifetime battling the inner demons, and they almost had me over the last couple of years. But the last six months have been a turning point. Some days, I lose, and I let the darkness fall on my shoulders, weighing me down. Some days I'm victorious, vanquishing the voices with my mighty wit and charm, smothering them with my bodacious curves and wicked grin. But every day, sun or shade, I pick up my sword and shield, look the demon in the eyes and say, "Bring it, let's see how much stronger I've gotten since our last battle."
So my sisters, my WarriorAngels, don't let the voices eat away your soul. Look at yourself honestly and with the kindness you'd give one of your dearest friends, and allow yourself to be the strong, vivacious woman you were meant to be. And if you need help slaying your demons, call me, we'll battle together.
You ARE lovable.
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thanks Grand, I'm 'bout ready to kick some more demon ass.
ReplyDeleteYou have to picture me saying "You go girl!".
ReplyDeleteComplete with the snaps and the neck roll? ;-D
ReplyDeleteThat would necessitate a closed casket funeral.
ReplyDeleteThat would necessitate a closed casket funeral.
ReplyDeleteI myself have my Warrior Angel, from Texas, no less, but I can still admire others. Hang onto that blade, and sink it, not yourself, into the heart of darkness. Every woman has something to offer. Hell, even Moochelle has value, she could be a plow horse.
ReplyDeleteWhat an insult to plow horses.
ReplyDelete*snicker*
Couple of years ago I was in the local inconvenience store. The gal behind the counter had a large stack of ear rings running arround each ear, and a tee shirt that said "You're just jealous that the voices only talk to me."
ReplyDeleteBeing me, I asked her if changing the arrangement of the rings got her diffrent voices.
Suprisingly, she got the quip.
Always remember, you are unique. Just like everyone else.
ReplyDeleteI guess thats why we love you.
You gals are your own worst enemies.
ReplyDeleteHaven't you surrendered yourself to these demons already... Yo umay fight them alone forever, but once weaker again, Aren't they coming back... And are they demons or succubi...
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lolol...
If you dont like the mood your woman is in, just wait a minute.
ReplyDeleteRPM speaks truth.
ReplyDeleteWhen you can answer those insipid internal voices with a wholehearted "F*ck You," that's when things really start changing.
I used to listen to those voices. I did it longer than I should have, by far. But now, I just don't give a damn what they have to say.
Yes, I'm balding, graying, out of shape, foulmouthed, and have a pickled liver and an attitude a mile wide. And so what? If anyone inside or outside of my head doesn't like it, they can go get bent.
THAT'S how you gotta roll, Angel. Those voices only have as much power as you let them have.
I've seen your picture, you are all those things you may think you're not and a lot more.
ReplyDeleteYou can't value yourself based on the opinion of someone who doesn't value himself.
If I were younger and closer......
I've known a lot a women over the years (no, not in the Biblical sense) who I thought were knockouts when I first met them. Then when I got to know them better, the inner ugliness came out and I wondered why I ever thought that they were great looking in the first place. This also goes the opposite way with ones that I didn't think much of their physical appearance at first. Then the inner beauty came out. Just remember, beauty comes from inside..............
ReplyDeleteHoney yer a doll, Smart ,funny and OMG that hair. Now go forth and slay demons. PS the real SOB of a demon is the one saying "you can shoot him/her and make it look like suicide". "If no one knows is it realy a sin?" or "icecream won't make you fat"
ReplyDeleteDon't have much trouble with the demons any more. Once I explained what I was up to, they came over to my side. Still have one or two that will start howling in the wee small hours, but usually if I yell at them and throw something they mellow out.
ReplyDeleteIt's great to be young and insane. :)
You dudes are great for a gal's ego. I had my worst couple of years, but I got through them stronger, and yes, much wiser.
ReplyDeleteBut I know the nature of woman is to doubt herself, so we have to be ever vigilant, not take the Milfy Monday remarks too seriously, and know our worth as WarriorAngels.
And Kyle, hon, you're almost as bat-shit crazy as I am. :-)
Just so her head don't get too big let me add this. ALL women are crazy. ALL of them.
ReplyDeleteSome of us dudes do it to.
ReplyDeleteFor me, it's a yearly thing during the High Holy Days as when I'm standing before HaShem, praying for forgiveness, I tend to look at myself and my actions over the year and during that moment when I'm "weakest", that voice creeps up on me. But I look at my wonderful wife, my amazing daughter, at how far I've come in my life and if that's not enough, by HaShem's grace I'm still here so that means I still have work to do so I need to bitch slap that demon and get to it, whatever It is.
I don't know you personally, but you seem like a good person. Pick up that sword, draw that demons' blood and carry on.
Hey, I'm just a dude and don't know much about having a pussy except I do like them. But all chicks are awesome, even the fat ones, and the skinny ones, tall ones, short ones, the ones with little tits, especially the ones big tits, all chicks. The are awesome, why are you ranting about this? Dudes love chicks. I am a dude, you are a chick. I love ya!
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