Today is July 1. New month, good time to start a cleansing fast. No, not a juice fast or a carb-free, fat-free, yummy-free fast. I'm starting a 21-day negativity fast. I am not allowed to say or think one single mean or hurtful thing about myself for the next three weeks. I am not allowed to use self-deprecating humor, which is not very humorous and is infinitely damaging. I am not allowed to dredge up past mistakes and bad choices and use them as a cat'o'nine to self-flagellate my ego.
What I am allowed to do is embrace every weird, wacky, wonderful thing that is wiserangel. I am required to pat myself on the back for being a pretty awesome friend, daughter, and mom. And I am highly encouraged to recognize the beauty of my body. Just exactly the way it is. For three weeks. I can do this.
But in case I slip up, and start throwing myself a maudlin pity party, you are more than welcome to gently hug me and smack me upside the head. So here's my first happy thought.
Good plan. 3 weeks? How about 3 months? 3 years? 30 years? You go girl.
ReplyDeleteTerry
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I think the 3 weeks has something to do with the amount of time it takes to change a bad habit and replace it with a good one.
ReplyDeleteI'm actually more concerned with 3 hours, 3 days....
Oh, man, I'd be screwed on that diet. Might as well shut off my braincell. Even my drool is self-deprecating!
ReplyDeleteBaby steps, baby girl. Nothing changes if you don't try.
ReplyDeleteI just wrote a long winded motivational (IMHO) paragraph, but cut it a the last minute.
What you wrote is perfect, thank you Angel eyes. *hugs*
ReplyDeleteLove, Hugs, good vibes, You ARE worth the time. ---Ray
ReplyDeleteStay strong. I've found that anything that's good for you usually hurts at first. I'll try to stop by and offer encouraging words (or wise ass commentary) when I can.
ReplyDeleteGood.
ReplyDeleteWe are our worst critics. Sometimes I've just gotta tell the voices in my head to shut the fuck up!
Bob
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I applauded your decision, and stand saluting you on the beginning of your journey. However, I can't help but notice that a journey like that can be tiring, so I would suggest you drop all unnecessary items to avoid dragging you down...like the dress.
ReplyDeleteMr. Miracle, trust me, I'll take two steps, trip on it, and that'll be all she wrote.
ReplyDeleteYes, but just think of the confidence/self-esteem boost you'd get from all of those bajillions of hits the video would get on YouTube!
ReplyDeleteI understand where you're coming from. Women are their own worst enemy. It's tough to learn to love yourself, I'm still working on it. Having said that, making the decision to change self destructive behaviors is a huge step in actually changing them.
ReplyDeleteYou're an awesome woman, and a fabulous Mom. Just keep putting one foot in front of the other, doing a bit better today then the previous one and you'll be just fine.
-CM
ah, Red. I'll say it again. All women got the standard issue stuff.. Some is packaged better that others but sexy hot is a frame of mind. You have a sexy attitude and I like that in a woman. the rat
ReplyDeleteRabid, there is only one thing in life I can guarandamntee. You will never see my ass on youtube.
ReplyDeleteMr. Rat, thank you very kindly. :-)
CM, this is what we need, a sisterhood that picks each other up instead of picking each other apart. You rock.
Angel, Sometimes, getting out of bed in the morning is a major accomplishment!! What you do in a day, all day, every day, is something to be proud of!! Its so easy to get off track when you're trying to be positive. Trust me, I know!! I'll be over here in wet & rainy Pittsburgh, cheering you on as well!!!
ReplyDeleteRemember, stay calm & Warrior on!!
AbbyS
Angel your awesome!!! Hugs girl :)
ReplyDeletegetting up in the morning and looking in the mirror you can see your worst enemy and/or your best friend, your choice. Make the right one and be kind to yourself ;-)
ReplyDeleteKnowing others is wisdom;
ReplyDeleteKnowing the self is enlightenment.
Mastering others requires force;
Mastering the self requires strength;
He who knows he has enough is rich.
Perseverance is a sign of will power.
He who stays where he is endures.
To die but not to perish is to be eternally present
You are fearfully and wonderfully made....read that somewhere...Psalm 139:14 but is completely true of you!
ReplyDelete*hugs* trouble right back at ya!
ReplyDelete*hugs* Miss Lisa. You're one of the strong women I admire. And endlessly patient....
Roll on my little rollercoaster. You're perfect in my eyes.
ReplyDeleteThank you stevie, dammit you made me blush.
ReplyDeleteAngel, I agree. We ladies need to stick together and support eachother. And thanks. I think you rock too.
ReplyDelete-CM