Sunday, August 13, 2017

It's not you, it's me

I have tried to write this post every day for the last week and just couldn't get the right words to come out. Maybe it's because I don't have any words left. I don't know. I just know I suck at goodbyes.

So how should I do this? The way most guys broke up with me? Silence, ignoring me until I gave up and went away? Nah, not my style. Write something so egregiously depraved that makes all y'all hate me enough to break up with me? Couldn't think of anything that bad that y'all would believe, so that's out. So we'll go with the old tried and true break up line: It's not you, it's me.

I don't know what it is, if it's apathy or exhaustion, but I just can't muster enough of anything to share. Everything online sucks. It's sad, angry, horrible, depressing. And you can access it with better commentary just about anywhere out there. The memes don't even make me giggle anymore. I don't see anything funny to share, and I refuse to share anything that's meh. So, we've just run out of things to say to each other, it happens, yeah?

It's not you, it's me.

I started this blog almost five years ago, come this November to be exact. I was in a much different state of mind, different life, different needs, different dreams. It was started in response to wirecutter's demand that I start one to keep me off of his. He was tired of me hijacking it with my witty comments. As many of you have noted, our back and forth was something to behold. But he's lost interest in backing, so it makes it kind of boring for me to go forth. The friendship is still there, it's just one of those dormant things. But a large part of the fun for me was our give and take. I've missed it for a long time, I'm just now realizing how much a part it was of the life of this blog. Life goes on, but sometimes in a different direction.

It's not you, it's me.

This has been one of the roughest summers for me with Teen Queen. It's taken a heavy toll on me mentally, physically and emotionally. The transition from school to the sheltered workshop hasn't taken place yet, and TQ's anxiety has reached epic levels resulting in some of the most violent meltdowns we've ever experienced. My job with her is to keep her and everyone else safe until she regains control; I can usually do this with minimal damage to either of us. But this summer, she's gotten bigger/faster/stronger and I've gotten older/slower/tireder (I know it's not a word, but dammit, it's a word.) I know if this doesn't work, I'm out of options. I can't care for her with the intensity of the meltdowns she's having. I'm almost 52; in ten years, I'll be 62, she'll be 32. 72 to 42. 82 to 52. One of us will die before then. So that's one of the things draining me.

It's not you, it's me.

Just know that I've enjoyed getting to know y'all over the years, sharing my life with you. Sharing ups and downs and laughs and tears. I do consider you friends and family. But it's time to call it a day. They always say go out on top, yeah? I'll leave it up for the archives, but there won't be any further posts.

I wish good things and a few weird things for all of you. Good things to make you happy, weird things to remind you of me.

Hugs to all,

Angel

148 comments:

B said...

Don't go.

We miss you.

Just take a break.

Don't make it permanent.

Steve Sky said...

Dear Angel,
You have been one of my daily clicks, just to see if you had posted another entry. I hope that you go inactive, and pick it up some time in the future, but if you don't, please realize that your posts have been enjoyed.

Fair winds & following seas,
Steve

Anonymous said...

Take a break and come back.

Praying for you and your family.

Peace

Ted's dad said...

It's yo thing,do what you got to do.You been a positive in a sea of shiite for years..Good luck ,your in our thoughts and people like you are in my prayers.

Ted's dad said...

It's yo thing,do what you got to do.You been a positive in a sea of shiite for years..Good luck ,your in our thoughts and people like you are in my prayers.

Wraith said...

God bless you and the Queens, darlin'. I've been in much the same mindset for over a year, which is why my blog's a ghost town now.

Take a break. See to your family. Maybe spend some time in prayer. And know that we love you, and you've touched a lot of lives and inspired a lot of people.

Allen Hagwood said...

Always lose the good ones. Hope you decide to return one day, you will be missed!! Wishing only the best for you and yours.
Allen

Anonymous said...

I came here from Kenny's and visit daily. I've been amused by your sly wit and inspired by your strength of character. I admire the courage with which you face your challenges. I will truly miss you and wish you the very best.

Carry on, Ma'am.

=TW=

thinkingman said...

Sorry to see you go, but understand you really need to. Remember to care for yourself! It's not an indication of failure to take help in jobs that are bigger than any individual person. If you get too worn down, you lose yourself, and then the ship sinks.
I shall remember you and yours in meditations, and have for you , hope.
Go in peace.

tmckelve1 said...

Angle,
I have never commented on your blog post but I come here every day to enjoy your wit. I will miss you and will keep you in my thoughts. Thank you, you have many of my days a little brighter and often made me laugh out loud.

Anonymous said...

Thanks, for all.
Thomas.

Joe Mama said...

Adults understand about priorities. Do what you must do. I took a nine month break from blogging. The blogging community is very tight. When I came back several fellow bloggers graciously linked to a few of my early "I'm back" posts to let the world know that I was back.

"TQ's anxiety has reached epic levels resulting in some of the most violent meltdowns we've ever experienced. My job with her is to keep her and everyone else safe until she regains control"

I am more familiar with mental health issues than I care to go into details with. One of the people who is close to me recently had their SSRI (sertraline) bumped up by fifty percent and made a HUGE difference. Please consider talking with TQ's psych and ask them to entertain upping or changing antidepressants/anti-anxiety meds. Sometimes an SSRI that has been working like a trooper for years will simply stop working. http://health.usnews.com/health-news/patient-advice/articles/2015/05/28/why-your-antidepressants-stopped-working-and-what-to-do-about-it

IMHO you need to let the reality of your observations guide you. Nobody is closer to TQ. If the antidepressant/anti-anxiety med stopped working, then change SOMETHING! I just want you to know that life has been much better since "X" had his/her SSRI bumped up three weeks ago.

Best regards and will be looking for you when things settle down.

-Joe

JeremyR said...

You have been a daily read for me, I will miss you. If you feel you must, We all as adults understand. We also see this as a loss of a voice, one of our chorus, a member of our team.
Life is hard, some times it sucks. Just know that we all here share your pain, share your joy and have shoulders made for tears of friends.
May GOD Bless you and Keep you.
May the Lord make His face to shine on you and be gracious to you.
May HE look upon you with favor, and grant you Peace.

James said...

I've enjoyed your wit and insight so much,you will be missed. God speed.

Anonymous said...

wherever you go,whatever you do, we are always with you...you are forever a part of us,and you have made, and continue to make, the world a better place....

vaquero viejo

Jennifer said...

Take a break, and take care of yourself! I have enjoyed your wit and hope to see it again when you are ready.

Marlena said...

you make me laugh and bring so much enjoyment to me & others! Bless you LL, my prayers that TQ settles into young womanhood in the fall, and makes that transition all in all successfully. Hopefully Max gives you extra comfort. Just remember to be kind & generous to yourself as well!

Anonymous said...

I found your blog 3 years ago, just after my eldest daughter was diagnosed with autism and I would like to thank you for the inspiration and proving that isn't the end of the world. I hope you and your family find a way to carry on and enjoy life. Best wishes

Andrew said...

Dear sweet Lady.

Please take care of yourself. Know that your readers love you and support you as much as we can.

You inspire me as I am one who deals with a medically challenging family member every day, while dealing with my own issues.

This blog is for you. You have allowed us to see into your wonderful weirdness. I hope to see you commenting over at Wirecutters, if you don't return here. No pressure. It's all for you.

Again, take care of yourself. Take care of the Queens. And know we're here for you if you need a shoulder to cry on or someone to scream at.

Hawken Cougar said...

Sounds like depression is winning. Get evaluated asap.

Skip said...

Lost a grandson to a group home due to violence.
It hurt..a lot, but we are safe and he is well cared for by pros.

Since the Bride went to see if God needed any help, I will be available to watch your back.
Bless ya Angel.

JPD said...

So sorry to see you go.

Just know, that if, sometime in the future, you want to re-connect, we, your loyal readers, will be here.

Good luck, God bless, our prayers are with you.

bayouwulf said...

You're my favorite Texican! I don't comment very often but, that's because you are way over me in the articulation department. I hope you find the desire to return at some point but if you don't, I understand the need for change. God Bless You, young lady!

drjim said...

Been reading you since I discovered this "blogging" thing many years ago.

Write when you feel like it, Angel. Don't make it your life. You have far more important things to do with your limited time.

I'll leave your blog on my sidebar so I can see when you pop back in here.

In the meantime, thanks for all the humor, insights, and snark.

BW Bandy said...

Take care. You will be missed.

Anonymous said...

Blessings to you Angel.

Thanks for all the great posts; they've been therapy to more than a few of us. Do take a break, rest up (assuming you can) but do come back to us.

Bill Cthulhu

Judy said...

Hugs, my lady. I pray you find something that works before the Teen Queen seriously hurts herself or anybody else. As you have observed you aren't getting any younger and as hard as it is, it may be time...for more meds or different living arrangements for everyone's safety. Been in similar circumstances, there are no easy answers and only tough choices. My heart goes out to you. Hang in there. And this to, shall pass.

Come back when things are better and let us know.

Elizabeth said...

I have enjoyed the time together, take care of yourself and know you will be missed. Best of luck with whatever you decide to do.

Heathen said...

As the others have stated; take time to take care of you and yours.

Know that your presence will be missed.

Come back when you are able.

Rob said...

You've a tough life & if the blogging isn't helping you it's not what you need. Blogging should be fun!
I'll be here should you decide you want to write some more & in the meantime I'll say a prayer for you.

Later!

Mike Donathan said...

I'll miss your comments. I check every day to see if you have anything new up. In the end you have to do what's right for you and damn the rest. Very best of luck and strength to you.

Rick in North Georgia said...

Change the blog focus - to what is happening to you

Give us an update from time to time, celebrate the good times !

there is a lot of experience here, let the herd help


rick in North Georgia, USA

Stan_qaz said...


I know how you feel, I had several sites that were fairly active and life changed on me. I kept one site just for the name and put a few things up there not visible unless you know or guess the URL. For several years this has been the only public page but I'm not dead yet and inspiration may strike at some point.

http://www.stanmiller.info

Good luck with all that is going on.

derrick justus said...

A few years ago I discovered Wirecutters blog and then yours. I come to yours daily and get great enjoyment from your sense of humor. It sounds like things are going rough for you and yours. I hope you can come up with something that works out well for your family. You will be greatly missed. Hopefully one day you'll feel up to returning. Be wishes to your family.

MattB said...

I check on you every day. Will miss your sense of humor. Thanks for all of your blogging. Please check in once in a while if you can. Good luck!!!

Granny said...

Oh shit. I knew things were bad but I honestly had no idea how bad it has been for you. You have fought long and hard, but my dear Angel, it is time to retire from the field with honor and courage.
From the comments above it is obvious that you are loved and admired. We will be fine, the most important thing is that you and TQ are safe. If you need anything please do not hesitate to ask. My email address is available from Miss Lisa. I mean this. Anything.

Anonymous said...

Not much for words. Let me second (or third of fourth?) what Ted's dad said.

RabidAlien said...

Family comes first, including yourself! Take care of your family, and if you decide to come back and do the occasional post, I think you'll be surprised how many will be here waiting with welcome-back hugs!

Anonymous said...

You will be missed...May the Lord Bless you and protect you and yours.
HT in Jersey

ÜberFisher said...

I have to agree with the internet finally making the transition to horrible. The news is awful, the comments on the news is awful. This wonderful tool that was supposed to unite humanity and put knowledge at the world's fingertips is now used also to amplify one's personal views. Like moths to a flame, it's killing everyone.

Anonymous said...

I agree with some of the others above - you just need a break from blogging. I don't think I could keep up blogging for five weeks, let alone 5 years. You are a total hero for sticking around for so long.

I totally understand the thoughts of the future for you and TQ. I'm nearly the same age as you (54) and have a soon to be 19 year old son diagnosed with PDD. Thoughts of 'who is going to take care of my son when I can longer do it?' are probably one of my worst 'What Ifs ?". I have no physical issues with him (and hope I never do - he's as strong as an ox!), at least not yet. He is frustrated and this is his last year in HS - we are aging him out at the end of 2018.

Totally out of our control isn't it - you can only hope and pray the person who will assigned to watch out for them will be more patient, more understanding than you are. Its all in God's hands they tell me. Thanks for the kind words, but it really doesn't help me feel better about the situation.

If this is the official end of your blog - THANK YOU SO MUCH ! I've enjoyed reading it, the trials and tribulations of 'adulting' is hard but so much better when you can relate to their thoughts. I hope you and your family find peace. If nothing else - please keep commenting and giving Wirecutter crap on his blog, its so funny !

Anonymous said...

Angel,

You have brought much joy into my life (and others, as is demonstrated), with many, many literal LOL moments!!

Although I understand and completely relate to the overwhelming feeling of despair of events, as well as issues with TQ, I hope you're not giving in to the negativity.

But do what you must and know we love you out here, we'll miss you and that we with you the very best.

Deb

rick c said...

Thanks for the years of letting us in to share both the laughs and the tears.I wish you and the queens the best and prayers to that end.

Paulie said...

Just like the others, you've been one of my daily clicks; thank you. I fully get why you--at the very least--need a break. Hopefully you'll catch the break you deserve and can be heard from again sometime in the future. Good luck with the kids.

Paul

loaded4bear said...

Angel,

I've only been reading blogs in this world for a year or so and you are on my daily list. I'll miss you, but understand. Hope things all work out for you and we'll hear from you in the future.

Never say never.

Anonymous said...

Angel:
You've been a real breath of fresh air!
I've loved reading your thoughts and words that made me think, "She's been reading my mail"!!! Birds of a feather and all that!
GOD Bless and keep you, the Girls and your entire family safe and healthy.
You will be sorely missed.

James N Q8

Anonymous said...

Hugs to you too, Angel. Hopefully things will smooth out in the not-too-distant future and you'll be inspired again. We'll be here...

wirecutter said...

Well, damn..... I don't know what to say.

Anonymous said...

I've been reading your blog for years. Take care of yourself and your family. You will be missed.

Rich said...

Yup, it's definitely you....
Seriously, do what's right for you.
I enjoy the hell out of your blog, but life is what happens while you make other plans. Take care of and enjoy your life first!

OldRagDragger said...

Blue skies and tailwinds, sister.

Anonymous said...

From a fellow Texan, God bless and do what you gotta do for you and yours. You were a daily stop-down for me and that will be missed.

Anonymous said...

Sad news, Angel

Wind River Ranger said...

Prayers, love, and heartfelt thanks for your time on line. You will be missed.

Anonymous said...

Best wishes Angel, just found Wirecutter which led me to your place and GREAT sense of humor. I'm sorry for your tuff situation, catch your 2nd wind and keep driving on! Gregbee

steve respy said...

i've just found you you and now your going
it's ok
i get it
i have the same feelings
the worlds not getting better
but I don't think it's really getting worse
somehow it's just getting uglier and more depressing to watch
sometimes it feels like it's Rome ..you know...at the wrong time

have fun and take care of you and yours... as I tell everyone
Oh and stack the ammo high and deep .....

Navy91 said...

You are well and truly going to be missed...by a lot of us. Thank you for sharing with us. I hope you get bored and come back from time to time. Take care of yourself, and may the best of life be in front of you.

Mark

John Smith said...

Angel,
I have REALLY enjoyed your blog and am going to miss reading your musings. I completely understand that life takes precedent and wish you the best for the future.

By the way, I read this article in the Washington Post and thought it might help you. I realize that it is next to impossible to do in Texas, but Colorado is not that far away.

https://www.washingtonpost.com/opinions/i-made-my-son-cannabis-cookies-they-changed-his-life/2017/01/06/699b1d20-d1ef-11e6-a783-cd3fa950f2fd_story.html

Anonymous said...

The problem is you don't want to face the terrible truth. You can no longer be the "teen Queens" caregiver and you have recoiled from your only real option. I quit commenting the day I realized that you were facing this crisis and there was nothing I could do to help. Anything
I said could only hurt you. I watched my mother go through this when she had to put her 97 year old mother in a nursing home because she could no longer meet the physical demands of caring for a woman with profound dementia. She fought to keep her at home for a decade past where she should have, and it broke her body and spirit. If this is the last thing I say to you, then let me urge you: PLEASE! Begin the process to transition your girls to a permanent living facility. Do it before you have a fractured pelvis, broken arm and broken spirit. Do it before you are crippled by the thing you love most in life. Do it before you are crushed. It will be the hardest thing you will ever do. But the two of them will out live you by decades, and the longer you wait in indecision the harder this will be on them , and you. Be strong Red One. Gird your heart with love. I'll miss you. ----Ray

Anonymous said...

As much as we hate to see you go, we do understand. Angels are precious, and we wait (hopefully) for your return. Take care of the Queens, and know that we love you.

Regards,
DayOne

extexanwannabee said...

Angel
You're the only female blogger that ever made any sense to me. I always appreciated your "tough gal" yet feminine position.
You always have a fresh perspective of life, many times making me laugh.
I will miss you.
X

bunker_man said...

Fun while it lasted. Take a break and become a troll on Kenneys' blog for a while. But come back.

Anonymous said...

I'm with the other guys that posted maybe don't leave permanently, take a break first instead. We'll miss you.

pigpen51 said...

Angel,
Not much that I can add that will help, except to say that you will be missed. I understand how tough it is with the breakdowns of a young woman with Autism. Just yesterday, we had a huge eruption. For the sake of my wife, I said that was the last time we could have it happen with no consequences. My daughter is a very large woman, age 20, and could hurt my wife, which will not be allowed. Another blowup like this one, and she will have to be placed elsewhere to live, just for my wife's safety. So I understand how difficult it is for you in your own life, without the pressure of trying to run a blog. That doesn't make you a failure, it makes you a person who prioritizes correctly. I do look forward to seeing you from time to time in other blogs, in the comments. It has truly been my privilege to have met you, and to have learned from you. I am richer for having read some of your wisdom, and will continue to check back from time to time, to see if you occasionally check in. All the best, and stay true to yourself.

Randy H said...

damn, it's all i have

Anonymous said...

BUT...I JUST GOT HERE!!!!!

This has been one of the few go-to sites where I was able to recharge with laughter.
Thank you for giving us that.

Wishing you and your family nothing but good stuff, and sending you nothing but positive vibes.

XOXO

John Eperjesi said...

One of my favorite bloggers, sorry to see you go.

Anonymous said...

i don't know what to say either.

gonna miss you girl..

livintoride

crow said...

Honestly, I've been expecting this.
You've mentioned issues with the girls & it gets longer between posts.
Farewell, you'll be missed. Come back if you need to vent.

Anonymous said...

A daily part of my internet day is over. So sad. I love sassy red-heads! I sincerely hope your life get's back on track. I will miss all the nifty pictures you usually post. I will say the glass is half full & you will be back. Long life & happiness to you ! fred

KnottaRobot said...

When the thrill is gone, it's time to move on.

And just when you finally fixed that captcha crap.

Mike aka Proof said...

I can certainly understand the frustration and fatigue. Those who don't put out a blog on a regular basis may not understand the amount of effort that goes into it...not just time, but the emotional toll it can take.
I haven't been the most frequent commenter here, more of a lurker, but I do appreciate the wit and verve you've brought to your little corner of the Web. We shall miss you.

Anonymous said...

It's been a pleasure to read your scribblings for quite a while now, and I'll miss them. Best of luck to you, and I hope that it all works out for you.

Vietvet said...

First we lost "Nothing to do with Arbroath", and now you. I hate it, but I understand it. Family comes first, and a woman's got to do what a woman's got to do.

Good luck, and as we used to say in 'Nam, "Keep yer head down".

All the best to you and yours.

Jess said...

Well crud. You will most definitely be missed. But I understand completely why you're doing it.

God bless you and yours, and keep you safe.

J Bogan said...

Damn. Sorry Angel. Hope things get better soon. Hugs !! It is all I got.

Flaxen Saxon said...

I hope you find peace in a world gone awry.

John The River said...

God bless you, I'm terrible at praying but I'll say one for you.

Matt LBS said...

I can't say much that hasn't already been said above, so I'll go with this. Thank you. Thank you for providing me with a break from the insanity of daily life. Thank you for making me laugh more. Thank you for making me cry sometimes. Thank you for so often saying the things that I say in my own head. Thank you for the encouragement to say them aloud myself sometimes. Thank you for showing me what bravery and courage looks like in real life. Thank you for fostering a dark sense of humor in me. Thank you for showing me that it's OK to let your freak fly from time to time. Thank you for showing me how much I have to be truly thankful for in this life. Thank you for putting yourself out there for all of us to see; the good, and the bad. In short, I guess what I am trying to say is thank you, for being you. Thank you!

Keijo said...

Thank you for the free ice cream! I enjoyed it. You have to do what is right for you and yours.
Thank you again

Anonymous said...

Darlin'; we haven't talked much, but the talk we've shared when you encouraged me when my grandson Logan was diagnosed, remain a priceless joy to my heart. You and yours shall always be in my prayers, and if there is ever anything I can do - even if it's just someone to pray with - do not hesitate. You have my email, Kenny has the rest of my contact info.
Rest and be blessed, dear heart. - Grandpa

Anonymous said...

Thank you for everything and I, we, hope to hear from you in the future when you want to rejoin the internet.

Anonymous said...

Suggestion:

Cull out the e-mails of the people who might come to bail you out at 3 a.m., send them the good stuff. Keep it real, o/w it does become a drag.

Best to you and your family. Thanks for the giggles!

s

RTinWeimar said...

Thank you Angel for sharing your laughs, your musings, and the occasional mischief. We hope your situations become less stressful with time as your burdens are lifted. You will be missed.

Ace Rimmer said...

Darlin', you go take care of you and your girls. All our prayers are all with ya'll. I always read yours and Wirecutters blogs last. Kinda like saving that thick portion of cream cheese frosting on that slice of carrot cake for last.
The spirit, tenacity and perseverance you have shown us through the years assures me you and God will find a way through this.
Your hooks have always been barbless (except for that pic of Kenny in the Tutu). Throw a hook occasionally into Kenny's pond to let us know how you're doin'.
God Bless You.
Tom

Rebecca said...

I live in Maine. One of the things I look forward to is to she what she has come up with today or what has happened this time. I have been where you are now. I too had a "teen queen" though she is older now and today is her birthday. The fights have been too numerous. the mistakes many and varied. She is still with us though she left (with the boyfriend) and then returned bringing back two lovely children whom wee love with all our hearts. IT makes the house crowded at times and the arguments are still happening from time to time. Two women under the same roof always equals conflict. The difference is how we view our lives and our roles in it.

Our sacred duty is to see that our children receive the training and lessons to keep them alive, happy, and responsible throughout their lives. When one realizes that our children are a gift that is only temporary and we strive to make it a lifetime, things get much simpler. Our grandchildren are now as much a part of our lives as our children once were. All our children are never far from home no matter where they are in the world. Our oldest has fought fires all over North America, she second leaves for his second deployment in the sandbox this week. His wife has calls here practically every day since he was married. (and now has two wonderful children of his own. Our youngest is sixteen, still in school and is 18 years youngest than his oldest brother. He too has the teen age attitude, the mood swings, and the teenage secretiveness that all teens seem to go through. But, he is responsible, dependable and those who know him love him as their own.

What matters is not what we do but how we do it. Our lives are a journey which we are granted to see if we are worthy of HIS Promise. Do not lose sight of that goal amid the chaos of the day. Share your life with those who love you and be stronger for the sharing.

Love
Rebecca

Antibubba said...

Good luck. Take care. We'll be fine.

seth anderson said...

Bummmer. Best of luck to you.

LesterB said...

Thank you for sharing. Do what you need to do for family.

Jeffery in Alabama said...

I hope you decide to come back after a break. I've always enjoyed your humor, etc., but also realize that real life and outside circumstances can be a game changer. Good luck and Godspeed in whatever you decide.
I hope to hear from you soon.
Jeffery

david rieck said...

I have been following your blog for years. Love your humor and wit. I know I could not do this for any length of time. I will miss your spot. Good luck in your life

Anonymous said...

We like to think life gives us choices when it actually give us tradeoffs. Sometimes you can't do this AND that; you can only this OR that. You have chosen wisely.

You are already missed. Your insights, wit and occasional naughty tone combine and resonate with real people leading real lives with real joys and pains. What a gift!

You need refreshment - the rest of the body, mind, emotions, and the soul. Even God Himself "rested" after Creation. I pray that He will draw close to you, and you to Him as you continue the journey.

'Miss you.

Country Boy said...

You're burned out and drained. Take time for yourself and recharge. It's hard to put yourself first, but you have to do it to survive. Drop in once in a while and just say hello, your friends are here if you need to rant. Your friends are also here if you just need a little contact and a couple of comments. Thanks for all the entertainment and I hope life settles down for you soon.

Anonymous said...

Shit happens. I have followed you since the beginning and will miss your thoughts, humor, and all the banter, both yours...and others. Maybe, just maybe you will find something that works for TQ. We don't want all the sorrow of you leaving to be something that we wallow in. This must be about your happiness and your children's. If you do return, we surely hope that there will be messages to your fans, perhaps from W/C, or others. You will be missed!

jr butler said...

hate to see you go best of luck....

Scott said...

Best wishes. I have friends with their own Teen Queen and I have passed on your stories to them.

If you ever do decide to keep posting things that amuse you just remember that they amuse most of us as well.

Terry Menard said...

I've enjoyed your postings. I hope you'll share some of your future travels, all the best and be well.

Anonymous said...

So sorry to hear this Angel. The writing has been on the walls for long enough. Your life has taken over and you are doing the RIGHT thing. As others have said, take.a.break. Tell us every nowand then how you are, maybe once a month? They're are people here who are vested in your trials and life events, esp. the Queens...
I'll miss you dear...Good luck, God speed and remember YOU have a ton of friends who care!!!
Mukilteomac........

Anonymous said...

Shouldn't have kids if your womb & soul are fouled. Just sayin'.

Terry said...

Hope everything works out and you can come back soon.
Hugs

J Bogan said...

Anon 12:43
FUCK YOU!!! And when discussing souls go look in a fucking mirror.

Scott halloween said...

Im gonna miss you Angel, as a side thought , there is enough money to keep inner city folk from ever having to work, why isn't any available to teen queen? That way you could just visit...and leave when you need to. Good luck.

Anonymous said...

Not sure how I came across your site, but stopped by ever since. It was your post concerning the 3/6 fire storm which really got me. I was involved with the Starbuck Fire and my world was about 5 miles wide for a week. Your post helped burst that bubble and get some smoke out my eyes, and I thank you.

Real life first. Take care.

Anonymous said...

Dear Angel,You will be missed. I came to you from Kennys site. I will keep you and yours in my prayers. You can do anything! You're a proud redhead! Best of luck,hope to see you again sometime.
Regards,
Todd in Kentucky

RDB said...

Angel - good luck to you and the family. Thanks for sharing with us over the last few years. Check in with WC once in a while so we know you are doing well.

rolldog

Anonymous said...

Ms. Angel- I am sorry to see you go dormant. I have done the same. Keep curiosity and adventure alive in your heart. There's always something interesting over the next hill. I escaped from Lubbock to Savannah. Best thing I ever done, as far as adventure goes. My friend, keep your eyes open and out of the cockpit.

emtgene said...

God bless you, dear lady. You've been one of my daily reads for a long time now. I understand that circumstances change, and we must adjust. I will miss you, a person I've never met in real time. Best of luck. If you decide at some time to come back, we'll be here waiting on you. Daily prayers for you.

kagalaska said...

Thanks a bunch girly follow your heart who knows you may decide to come back but anyhoo good luck to you and yours

Anonymous said...

Hey Chick,
I'm not Kenny. I'm a 27 year fireman and Captain and on my off days I get paid to argue about real estate. I argue a lot. I live in St. Louis. Nuff said about that. I will argue and/or back and forth with you as best I can if it helps you out and keeps the blog going. I miss your stuff. I mean it sucks.... waiting on you.

Anonymous said...

Nothing needs to be said 'cept ... We all love you Angel.

Please take really, Really, REALLY good care of yourself.

Adaptive said...

Don't worry about us, go ahead and do what you gotta' do. We'll miss your posts but the real world (and one's health!) always outweigh a hobby blog.

That said, please don't let a temporary situation become permanent (unless you've given it due consideration and deliberately made that choice). A blog will sit in cyberspace indefinitely, gathering not a bit of dust, and await your return. Back it up, pay your hosting fee (if any), and leave it in a condition ready for reactivation. If you feel the need to vanish more completely, leave a place holder, pull it off-line, and keep your content on disk.

Good luck and remember hard times tend to pass. Should you choose to start blogging again, drop me an e-mail. I'll have you back on my blogroll toot sweet.

oldnorthstate said...

I stop by nearly every day and have enjoyed your wit and posts.

May the Lord richly bless you. I will hope you get a second wind along the way.

Anonymous said...

Very sad to read of your farewell. I hope things improve for you, sincerely. First, Blue's Blog, now the Lonely Libertarian. The forces against us are strengthening, and we are losing our on line allies. God save the Republic.

Anonymous said...

go fort and have some fun making yourself in a newer way

and forget about everything including me

Wildflower

Anonymous said...

Take care of You and Yours first. We'll be here if you decide to come back. Wishing the best for you. Thank you for all.
---ignore amos

Jack Clancy said...

Say it isn't so.

Anonymous said...

In our prayers.

Anonymous said...

Ah, Angel. I am so sorry for the heartache. You're right. The internet and the news these days are just so wretched. It makes my heart hurt too.
I'm also so sorry for the heartache you're having over your girls. I've never been in your exact shoes but I do know raising kids ain't for sissies. I pray for you and your girls and hope things get better real soon.
I am going to miss you. Hugs to you girl.
Sunny

Mr.Miracle (Joe Lovato) said...

Dear Lady, you are absolutely correct in doing what you need to for you and yours. Although I will miss my daily clicks into your mind, as everyone has stated, I understand, and wish you good fortune, God's Blessings, and long life for you and your family. You have made me laugh out loud, made me think, made my cr.....well....get a severe case of "dusty eye". You have nothing to apologize for. Although you will be missed, hold you head high and know that you have touched people, heart and soul, and will always have a place in our hearts. God Bless.

GruntOfMonteCristo said...

What Wraith said! Bless you and the Queens. Give it some time. But it ain't you, Darlin'. Lots of us have shut down for the same reasons. It's ok. But you will be terribly missed. And we hope to see your comments over at Kenny's. Somebody's gotta keep him honest.

Anonymous said...

Thank you for everything and God Bless you and your family.

Anonymous said...

KC & The Sunshine Band - Please don't go

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=w-l5FyA3pgo

Anonymous said...

long time lurker here,
thanks and good luck

rr

Lofty said...

Come back when you are ready dear lady.

We all understand and wish you and yours only the best.

See you when and if you return.

Regards from downunder.

Nuffs Enuff said...

Sorry to read this. I looked forward to seeing new posts from you. I, as some others, wondered over from Knuckledraggin... You will be missed. Well wishes to you in all you must encounter.

Mark Jewell said...

Was floored when I saw this post, but I do understand the need for putting the girls as your first priority.
It has been fun reading your missives and your ongoing war of wits with Wirecutter. I sincerely hope you will return, and I look forward to whenever that day comes, assuming I am still alive and kicking. ;-)

May God Bless you and your family, and I'll always try to send good vibes your way.

Mark

Tom Reynolds said...

I have enjoyed your sense of humor and outlook on life will miss reading your blog I look forward to your new post every week may your dssys find peace for your soul






Anonymous said...

Fair winds and following seas! You will be missed greatly. I do hope that you find your way back though.


Highlander

Anonymous said...

I discovered your blog after going on Wirecutter's page, a few years back, and always followed you daily. But health first. I wish you well, and to live a long and happy life.

From Gatineau, Quebec, Canada

Big hugs!

Kristy said...

Just found you a few months ago. One of my favorite clicks. You're 1 ½ years older than me and live in Texas. Do what you need to do. I too was considering giving up on a site. Take care - love and prayers.

rickn8or said...

I'm just going to leave this here for your perusal:

https://www.theatlantic.com/health/archive/2013/06/in-autism-the-importance-of-the-gut/276648/

Quoting my daughter-in-law's FB comments:
"Both of my boys were diagnosed w/ autism (Asperger's) 10 years ago. They both had been on numerous antibiotics in the first 3 years of their lives. We did the GFCF diet and probiotics and finally found a doctor who would treat them for yeast overgrowth in their gut (due to antibiotic use). Once we cleared up the yeast they appeared "normal". All of the autistic traits were gone--sensory processing issues, speech issues, social issues, foggy brain, etc. While I first thought the autism diagnosis fit their behavior, I now think my boys were misdiagnosed and that this is probably happening in a lot more children. Yeast feeds off sugar and a large portion of a toddler's diet is carbohydrates (finger foods, yogurt, milk, fruit, potatoes, rice, etc) and so it becomes a vicious cycle. Each time they went on an antibiotic we would see those autistic traits come back until we finally figured out the yeast connection and then our allergist would also prescribe an anti-fungal if needed after taking the antibiotic."

Love,

Parklake guy said...

Dear ms Angel;
I;m a late comer, but have read enough of your trials. Ya gotta do what ya gotta do-take care of the family.
I'll stop by once in a while to see if you changed your mind.

pigpen51 said...

Angel, if you still check in, stay safe in the storm season coming. You still are missed. Blessings.

Steve Ronin said...

durn it. I check in after 3 months away and you're quitting?
I love your thoughts and your blogging.
but I'm not the one to lecture you on blogging.


...but I do update mine usually monthly.

BusinessFirstFamily.com said...

I'm sorry for your bad breakup and that you are going through a hard time right now. I think your words are very relate-able and strike a cord in anyone that has gone through being unappreciated. I hope you decided to continue your blog and its operations management. Good luck and best wishes!

Fish said...

I miss your humorous posts. The dark humor helps me understand the times my life is disappointing. Like the Book of Lamentations is good read when I am in a bad mood.

Granny said...

Hey girl. I notice that wirecutter has been his usual insensitive, asinine self. Love it. We are still here, hoping things are getting better for you.
Hurricanes and first day of school, a mere doddle.

Anonymous said...

Ma'am: Thank you for your candid inputs into our lives. Your perspective from a hill different from mine has both touched and enlightened me.... oh, and you ARE the queen of snark.
Keep a tight hold of the tiller........soapweed

Anonymous said...

Another one that stumbled upon WC's blog and then found this one.
+1 on all previously said.

Thank you and take care.
PoppaGary

stevierayv said...

Well shit I missed this.
Good luck in all you do.
Be well girl.

Anonymous said...

https://www.popsugar.com/smart-living/Introvert-Problems-38264118

Granny said...

Angel, checking in again to make sure you are doing ok. You are not forgotten. Cuddles to you and the Teen Queens.

Rob said...

Hello Angel, it's been almost a month, I hope things are going better for you.

John The River said...

Checked back to see if you and yours are OK, following the late weather unpleasantness.

Be safe.

Rob said...

I hope you're well...

pdwalker said...

Now who's Wirecutter going to ban?

Take care.

SunwolfNC said...

Echoing what others have said- take care of the family and stay strong (in both heart and mind). We'll be here after things settle down for you and your loved ones. Take care Angel.

Notenki said...

Don't give up, but rather PURGE! My personal mantra now is #DramaFreeLife. Take a break. Regroup. Cleanse. Return refreshed. You have to take care of yourself FIRST or you're no good to anybody. Solitude yes, but divorce NO. We'll be waiting for you...